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Journal prompts - Day 1

So, I've decided to use daily prompts to make my journaling more interesting and fruitful and more frequent. 247 Journal Writing Prompts to Inspire Your Thoughts (developgoodhabits.com) this is the site where I found the prompts, they seem fun so here we go! It would be awesome if someone joined m...

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Friends

I have a problem concerning my friends. There is something I seriously do wrong, or something I expect wrong and I hate it. Last year I lost a friend. I never saw it coming. I knew we weren't at our best, but I was ready to talk about our relationship, to see what the problem is, discuss it, work o...

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Day recording

So, I've been ill for the past few days, and I've been home, which means that I am left to my own devices when it comes to how I spend my time. It's interesting that now it sounds to me like I completely don't have trust in myself when it comes to the "smart" and "useful" ways I spend my time, I fee...

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Fweedom

I used to smoke a lot of weed. There was that period when I had access to it and I really didn't care about having control. It provided relief for me, something akin to creativity but not really. It gave me a sense of possibility, but whenever I woke up from it, there was more emptiness. I felt crea...

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Demystification

So, hi. I have completely forgotten about the online diary, I think it will do me good to write a little bit about the last few days. Or just more in general. So, a couple of days ago, I felt really really really bad. I had a random fight with my girlfriend, we usually fight about the little annoy...

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Therapy

I was in therapy today. I don't go frequently, I go whenever I feel like I need to, like when there's something to untangle or simply talk about. But this time I let a lot of stuff pile up, so I went twice. Today was the second time. The reason I felt like I needed to go was because I was dealing w...

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Anger

Anger is such a strange emotion for me. It is like fire in its essence, it burns and feels destructive and dangerous. I am not too familiar with fire. I like the sound of wood crackling, tiny whooshes and all, it is hypnotizing to look at but I never identified with its nature. Quite the opposite. E...

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Meeting of the two worlds

I've been thinking about my periods of staleness, inactivity and overall indifference. Actually, I know that I am not indifferent, I don't feel well when I get demotivated like that. I wish I could be more productive as people today all over the world say: it's all about productivity. About having p...

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Silence

Ever since I was little I had a thing with silence. I wanted to be silent because I thought it made me look smarter. I wanted to be silent because I didn't want others to know what I think about. I wanted to be silent because a lot of times I didn't really have anything to say. I wanted to be silen...

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