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11/12

How do you hangout with a group of people who are planning future events when you are planning to kill yourself in a little over a month?

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Dreams

I think that once you hit a certain point in life, you subconsciously give up on the idea of having dreams. Your life has settled into whatever rut it is going to follow for the rest of your days, and there is little you can do about it in most cases. I almost want to say you get too old for them, ...

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Life

I don't know how to keep doing it anymore. I will turn 34 at the end of the month and all I want is to die. There is nothing good left in my life, nothing that I enjoy or look forward to. I spend most of my days fighting the urge to cry uncontrollably and harm myself just to make myself bleed. I spe...

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Why? Do I?

Why does everyone have to just blow smoke up my ass and lie to me that about that I am capable at anything. Why do I always have to find out that the people I my life have no belief in me from hearing them talk about me not to me. Why were none of the previous attempts successful, why am I not alrea...

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