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Cryptid

I got in trouble for being one minute late leaving Providence this morning and I still had to stand and wait for them to open the day room... Ugh. I got breakfast, but didn't eat much of it. I wanted to get started on working on the commission work I had to do. I worked on practice sketches last nig...

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Noodle Doodles

Got up early again without any prompting. Maybe it's the light coming on that wakes me up because lately I've woken up without my blanket over my head. Apparently our room got in trouble for someone vaping in the bathroom last night, so I need to be careful because I know it wasn't me- I don't use t...

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Hot Damn

Today was long and hot. I'm pretty into the routine now that I've been here for two weeks as of tomorrow. I actually can't believe it's been that long already. I fell asleep really late last night and got out of bed automatically. I don't even recall anyone telling me to get up. I went up to get bre...

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Please Stand By

I currently only have access to my phone. No wifi here... it's a new phone with a pay as you go type plan, (a Samsung Galaxy S20 FE. Yeah, I decided go big or go home and I don't have no home lol) so luckily it's good enough to journal on, use the internet, and listen to Spotify at the same time. Ri...

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Finding Meaning

When I was woken up for vitals today I had to sit up because my blood pressure was too low and they had to take it again. I'm already dehydrated from limiting water. I skipped dinner last night and breakfast this morning on purpose. Sam called me and I felt ok while talking. I'm glad she had a safe ...

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All The Cares I Give

Back on my normal medications, I didn't wake up groggy for once. It's overcast and cloudy again today. What a difference from the 90° days we were having. I didn't eat a ton, but I ate enough- an English muffin and oatmeal. What an amazing feeling it is to be not tired! Or at least not feeling ...

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Self-Compassion

Today is a cold, rainy day. I was woken up a bunch of times and had to wait in the med line and had only less than 10 minutes to eat again, by the time someone was able to bring me down to the cafeteria. They let me bring my coffee back and I tried to take a nap which kept getting interrupted. The p...

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5/23/21

Woken up three or four times for meds and breakfast too early, then had to wait like 20 minutes to even get all of my meds. Thank goodness the doxycycline wasn't actually removed. I still feel tired and doped up from the trazodone and I hate it and can't wait until my real doctors can fix it again. ...

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Zeroed Out

I slept through breakfast, the two morning groups, and lunch. The trazodone being doubled made me feel drugged and exhausted. The staff all treat me differently now that I self harmed and they're very rude, especially the nurses. I met with a different psychiatrist because mine was out and explained...

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Checks Unbalanced

I was woken up by a medical doctor(?) asking me about my medications while I was still sleeping, so I forgot to mention important things like I recently had MRSA and 3 surgeries, because I was sleep-talking. I tried getting up to track them down, but they left. I couldn't get back to sleep, so I wen...

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Behavioral Hospital Day One

Bare with me as I begin to journal my time spent at the behavioral health hospital as my journal isn't the neatest and has pages pushed in between for each day, so there's a depth to it which can't really be expressed in a digital way... These journal entries have been modified to fit your screen. ...

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5/19/21

In the middle of the night last night they decided to give me an actual bed because they wanted to have an alarm on it so I don't get up. Jokes on them because they keep forgetting to turn the alarm back on, and now I have a regular hospital bed. They eventually turned on the alarm and while waiting...

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