Starting my Journal today.

Glad its Friday, about to start work. I feel physically well and just above neutral emotionally without thinking to much.

Last Year my first child was born in September and then about a week before Christmas my mother died. My life will be permanently different in so many ways. I was close to my mom. I've been so busy with work I haven't really had much time to sit with my new reality and process.

I have a great job and an incredible spouse. My bosses and work culture are great and my wife is extremely supportive. Although I am rather in touch with my feelings I do tend to lean on the side of acting like "everything is great" even when it's not. Im great to have around during a crisis, but knowing what I need and openly asking for it are a struggle. I'd rather focus on others needs instead of my own.