1:26 AM

There's a lot of not great things happening right now. I can feel depressed and defeated if I want to feel that way, but I'm going to choose to not feel that way. The numbers on the scale are doing terribly at the moment. This is my way of coping, but in reality too, there's not much difference in anything whether the number goes up or down.

I'm still able-bodied and able to do what I want to. I am still far better off now than I was 5 years ago. In a way, things are great. I'm just going to enjoy life as much as I can now. This is actually what I should have been focused on this whole time.