Helloo my journal,

today was school. I was pretty tired all day. I have a bruise from PE lesson :c.

I was talking with my friend about her mental health. I am pretty worried about her. Her parents do not use her new name. She is trans. To me, she have always been a girl tbh. I do not remember thinking to myself like: o thats the boy of the group or something. I am proud of her, cause she wants to come out in our school. I think it will go well, cause our teachers are supportive and we have other trans students in our school. I love my school. It makes me feel safe tbh. Soo she have a lot on mind and going on in her life and i am worried. She is strong but i hope she will be this type of strong. She will make it. I know it. but I AM SOO WORRIED. I do not have control over this things. I can only show her that i am here for her. Idk if she even wants me to be for her, i like her, but there was always a weird energy like she does not think like i am enough to know her deep. OR I am overthinking lol OR BOTH

I do not feel like learning for math test and i have to do it. And i have also another test from diffrent subject. Why can i just read books and enjoy? It is not that bad i like maths and this subject. I should have been gratefull tbh. I am gratefull for learning and everything. I am just tired and i just felt like telling this thing haha

I also told my friends about my past experimence with theraphy. That was weird. It felt like I was talking about a diffrent person. I am diffrent from her. I hope so. I do not want to be like her again. I feer this time i will not make it. I will fell harder. And I will not. Not again. One time was enough.

yeah so i should probably go study

Wish me luckkk

Full of tiredness

XYZ